2013 was not a bad year for me. I ran my very own half-marathon, ran/walked my first “family” 5k, ran/walked a very fun Color Me Rad race with a lovely friend with absolutely no time goal in mind, and ran more miles in a year than ever before–664 miles. Admittedly, I am 76 miles short of my goal mileage for the year, but I’m really ok with that. It’s still 24 more miles than last year, and that’s with over 2 1/2 months off. Woo-hoo! Ok, I’m pretty proud of that. I haven’t seen all of the numbers in print before, and now that I have, I’m quite happy with it.
Health-wise it hasn’t been the best year. Two surgeries on my legs for varicose veins and ended the year with a herniated disc in my back. Not sure what will happen next. I do wonder if this blog will need to be renamed. What else will you “see Holly” do? Only time will tell, but I do have hope that my running will continue.
My weight fluctuated more than I wanted it to this year. I was up too far in September, but gambled my way to a weight I was happy with. Then I lost too much weight this fall, which for me, is a weird thing to experience or even talk about. Seeing “159” on my scale was a surreal yet scary thing to happen. I was afraid to eat yet even more afraid I would become weaker and more frail than I already felt. For now, though, things are better. I’m at a pretty comfortable 163 pounds and haven’t gotten a “you’re too skinny” comment in over a week, so my public must think I look ok. 😉
Professionally, I think it’s been a really good year. I’ve been fortunate enough to be part of the Maine Library Leadership Institute, where I’ve met some amazing librarians here in Maine and throughout New England. We’ve created this pretty spectacular support network and because of these folks, I feel more confident in my work and more competent in what I do. I’m also participating in groups I want to be a part of, like being a judge for the Maine Readers’ Choice Award. Do you know what I have to do for this committee? READ! Seriously. This is the *best* committee I’ve ever been a part of.
Fortunately, my family has had a pretty good year, too. My husband lost a few pounds and my son is on his way to becoming a giant. My sister started hunting, partially inspired by our weekend together; my brother published several stories; my parents’ health is as good as it can get right now. All in all, things are good and we are well aware of it. We try to appreciate these good times and not worry about the future.
You know what? Typically I love this time of year. There is so much promise…so much hope that good changes will happen. I’m just not feeling it this year. I’ve been good about only having goals that I think I can actually achieve–like my mileage goals. But due to my back, there will be no mileage goal for 2014, unless I get the go-ahead from the neurosurgeon. And since I won’t see him for another week, then I’m passing on that goal for now. I want to say that I’ll be good to myself next year and stop berating myself for gaining a pound or missing a workout but….I hate to fail. For a day or two, I thought I’d throw out my scale for 2014. But I just can’t do that. Part of what keeps me sane is knowing that I’m not gaining weight. Of course it’s also a part of what makes me insane. Go figure.
How about this? I often feel like a weakling. I can’t lift much of anything and I really find that annoying. So, I resolve to be stronger in 2014. I hope strength will be represented not only with my body, but with my mind. Perhaps I’ll learn to love myself like I’m loved by others.
I think I like that. This is good.
Ok. Obviously this isn’t the “usual” thing to talk about or is related to New Year’s. Maybe the “r” should be reinvention or rules or some such thing. But for me? *Everything* can be associated with reading. I recommend books to people for a living. I typically only give books as gifts. Every person that is close to me is an avid reader (with my parents being the exceptions—weird, right?). I love to talk about what I’m reading. I love to talk about and listen to *you* talk about what you’re reading. Ideas and stories from books can change lives. They can influence you, make you feel less alone. They can justify your beliefs, your worries and your loves. Books rule my world in one way or another.
And yet…I never have a goal of how many books I want to read in a year. So many of my friends do. I think it might be because reading is such a big part of my life that I don’t want (or need) to have a goal associated with it. I may love running, but I still need a goal to get me out that door on a wet cold February (or March or November) morning. But it’s a rare day that I don’t want to read. In this sense, I feel like my life is so very rich and full and good. Books and reading and conversations about what we read is what makes this woman happy. Possibly even more than not having to suck in my gut when putting on my new size 10 pants. 🙂
And what have I read this year? It seems like I’ve read anything I can get my hands on. I’ve read only about 92 books but it included biographies, graphic novels, erotica, short stories, lots of literary fiction, teen fiction, mysteries, non-fiction, poetry and books about body image. What isn’t counted are the hundreds of picture books and children’s graphic novels my son and I read together, as well as the large amount of magazine articles and blogs I’ve enjoyed reading all year. (I’m a huge fan of goodreads.com, so if you’d like to see what I’ve read and want to read, you can become my “friend” there.)
Next year, maybe I’ll read 100 books, or actually count all of the books my son & I read, too. We’ll see. I’m not making any promises.
I think 2014 should just be the year where we all just enjoy life. Doesn’t that sound good? If this year has taught me anything, it’s taught me that life is so very short. Let’s all do what we can to make this next year be a good one, in whatever ways we choose.
May the new year be filled with peace, happiness, and love for us all!
(And possibly running and reading, too.)